For the first 50 years of my life, my perfectionist self mistakenly believed it was all about knowing more, getting it right, planning, attempting to prevent bad things from happening, and keeping all of my chicks in a row. It took me this long to discover that the JOURNEY is all that matters. This quote from Gilda Radner sums it all up:

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
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Sunday, April 22, 2018

A Different Birthday Blog

I have a standing tradition of posting a blog on the birthday of each of my kids to celebrate their lives in a special way.  In the past,  I've included lots of pictures.  I have thousands of pictures from their childhood days, school events, and family times to draw from.  

Today I am faced with a dilemma.

It is unlike dilemma's I've faced in years past,  such as whether or not it's time to potty-train
or what time to set a curfew for teenagers. 

For the first time, this year,  I feel like it isn't appropriate anymore to post pictures of my angel-faced little boy at different stages of childhood.  BUT, at the same time, I also don't feel it's appropriate to brag about my grown-up son and how wonderful he is - not to mention how I just scrolled through my phone and don't have a single photo of Adam from the recent past.  

The funny thing is this:  I don't wish I could go back in time.  I don't wish that my son was still a teenager struggling to find himself.  I'm happy that Adam is a successful man who has a meaningful career, living in a city that he loves.  I love that he's happy with himself and his life.  I am proud of who he is and look forward to all the future has to offer him.

A wise person once said there are two important gifts a mother can give to her child.  The first is roots.  The second is wings.

  Check.
  Done.  
  Finito. 

Since this is a birthday blog,  I have one more thing to do before I'm done.

Adam,  I have known you and loved you longer than any 
other person on this earth - 27 years to be exact.  

I wish you the happiest of days, today and always!

(see you next weekend!)

Love,  

Mom






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