For the first 50 years of my life, my perfectionist self mistakenly believed it was all about knowing more, getting it right, planning, attempting to prevent bad things from happening, and keeping all of my chicks in a row. It took me this long to discover that the JOURNEY is all that matters. This quote from Gilda Radner sums it all up:

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
"


Sunday, April 22, 2018

A Different Birthday Blog

I have a standing tradition of posting a blog on the birthday of each of my kids to celebrate their lives in a special way.  In the past,  I've included lots of pictures.  I have thousands of pictures from their childhood days, school events, and family times to draw from.  

Today I am faced with a dilemma.

It is unlike dilemma's I've faced in years past,  such as whether or not it's time to potty-train
or what time to set a curfew for teenagers. 

For the first time, this year,  I feel like it isn't appropriate anymore to post pictures of my angel-faced little boy at different stages of childhood.  BUT, at the same time, I also don't feel it's appropriate to brag about my grown-up son and how wonderful he is - not to mention how I just scrolled through my phone and don't have a single photo of Adam from the recent past.  

The funny thing is this:  I don't wish I could go back in time.  I don't wish that my son was still a teenager struggling to find himself.  I'm happy that Adam is a successful man who has a meaningful career, living in a city that he loves.  I love that he's happy with himself and his life.  I am proud of who he is and look forward to all the future has to offer him.

A wise person once said there are two important gifts a mother can give to her child.  The first is roots.  The second is wings.

  Check.
  Done.  
  Finito. 

Since this is a birthday blog,  I have one more thing to do before I'm done.

Adam,  I have known you and loved you longer than any 
other person on this earth - 27 years to be exact.  

I wish you the happiest of days, today and always!

(see you next weekend!)

Love,  

Mom






Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Happy National Siblings Day to My Sister, Lori!


I did not get my love of photography from my parents.  

On this National Siblings Day, 
I was hard pressed to find decent photos of
me and my sister, Lori, before the age of 20.
The ones that I show here are from our old 
"home movies"
that replaced real photos in our house at about the
same time that my sister was born.

Nonetheless, I was able to capture screen shots from these
grainy, blurry 8 mm film reels to create some of 
our history together as young children.


I am 4 years older than my sister, Lori.  We used to ride
the mechanical horse together when my mom took us to 
the laundromat .


This actual photo was taken the day of Lori's baptism.  
She was held by Aunt Connie as I looked on adoringly.


Here we are running down the sand dunes on Cape Cod.


Most likely on the same trip, we were splashed by a giant wave
on the beach with my mom.


This was Christmas morning with our snap-on curlers still in our hair.


I believe this was filmed when we were on our way back
from the camp store with ice cream treats.


Another beach picture - this time with my dad.
I still remember this bathing suit - but I don't remember what
those strategically placed emblems were on my patriotic
bathing suit!  Stars?  Mom, what were you thinking?


We were twins in our red Danskin shirts 
 in Florida that year.


I don't know who took this once-in-a-lifetime shot, but it was taken at 
the Canadian Open with my heart-throb - Jack Nicklaus -
and only half of me made it in the picture!


There have been many good pictures since then.




And I hope there will be many, many more!

On the National Siblings Day 2018,

I hope you know how important you are to me.
I hope you know I am always here for you.
I hope you know how much I love you!