For the first 50 years of my life, my perfectionist self mistakenly believed it was all about knowing more, getting it right, planning, attempting to prevent bad things from happening, and keeping all of my chicks in a row. It took me this long to discover that the JOURNEY is all that matters. This quote from Gilda Radner sums it all up:

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
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Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Filling the Void

After leaving Annie in Rochester, Vance was also leaving for the rest of the week.  He was going to New York on business.  The prospect of being totally alone for the rest of the week didn't appeal much to me at this time, so I decided "Why not go with him?"

We took an early train to the city on Tuesday, dropped our bags off at the hotel, and parted ways.

I was still alone, but at least I was alone with a million other people!

Whenever I had spent time in the city in the past, I was always with someone else.  I always had a specific place to go.  This time I could go wherever I wanted to go and do whatever I wanted to do.  I had a guidebook, a subway map on my iphone and my camera.

For two days, I walked the streets until my feet ached, rode the subways to unknown neighborhoods and spent a lot of time with my reading glasses and my map trying to figure out just where I was and how to get to where I wanted to go!


Columbia University
 But I had no timetable.

St. John the Divine Cathedral

And no place I needed to be.

Hot Dog for lunch in Central Park

I could browse the aisle in the huge Container Store for an hour...


Sit down and watch people in Washington Square Park in Greenwich Village...


or spend hours at the Museum of Modern Art, even though it was dinner time!



It wasn't the art that necessarily thrilled me.


Such as this "Portrait of a Woman"


or "Dance" by Henri Matisse.

I loved the architecture of the building.  




I loved watching people sit and study the art, wondering what they were seeing that I was missing.



One time, just for kicks, I decided to study and take pictures of a blank wall with a door and a sign "electrical closet".


It would have made my day if someone had joined me!

On the second day I was there, I decided I would give a little money to every homeless beggar I passed.  It didn't cost me much, but I received many thankful smiles that day.  I wish I had taken pictures!


What I love most about cities is what you find when you're looking for something else.



On the third morning, I decided I was ready to come home.
I was tired and the city just isn't a very restful place for me.
When everyone and everything is moving so fast, it's hard to slow down.

So I made my way to Grand Central Station and hopped on the train back to New Haven with minutes to spare.

I stopped at Whole Foods on the way home to stock up for the week...


I guess I don't need such a big shopping cart anymore!


When I finally got home, there were two friendly faces welcoming me!

The trip was a nice diversion to get me over the hump of having no children at home.

Now it's time to start considering how I want the rest of my life to be.


Saturday, August 31, 2013

Annie's New Digs

After all of the drama/anticipation/anxiety/excitement of the past year, the day finally came for Annie to move away to college at the Eastman School of Music in Rochester.

She was scheduled to move in at 10:30 AM on Monday, but due to the long drive we decided to go up on Sunday so the move wasn't so hectic.

The car was all packed.


Before we pulled away,  Annie ran to the front yard to take a picture of the house on her phone (maybe she thought she'd forget what it looked like!)


Then we were off!


The next morning, we pulled up in front of the dorm at 10:30 and were met by a large group of Eastman sophomores with large bins.


One of them greeted us and helped unload the car into a rolling bin. We needed two trips to get everything up to her room.


Inside the dorm was a welcome sign with the names of all members of the Eastman freshman class.


Annie stopped at a table to get her room key and we headed to the elevator to go up to the 10th floor.



When we first saw the room, I wondered if everything would fit!


After meeting Carley, Annie's roommate, Vance and I retired to the lounge to wait for Annie to unpack.  The room just couldn't accommodate all of us!





She managed to find a place for almost everything - we took back a few plastic storage drawers and her big duffle bag.


After a trip to the bookstore for a sweatshirt...


a tasty frozen yogurt, and a drive to the main U. of Rochester campus,

 
it was time to say good-bye and get on our way.


This was the last time I smiled for quite a few hours.  After this picture I gave Annie a hug and the sobs began.


As we left Rochester the skies opened up , commiserating what I was feeling inside!  I already missed her!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

24 Hours

Day, n. A period of twenty-four hours, mostly misspent.
                           Ambrose Bierce

On any normal day, we don't always make the most of our time.  


But what if it wasn't a "normal" day.  What if it was a day that would only happen once in your lifetime?  

What if you were leaving home for the first time in your life to live 5 hours away in another state to go to college? 

What would you do with your time?  

Here is what Annie did last Saturday before she left for college on Sunday.


She didn't waste much time sleeping.  At 4:30 AM, she woke up and met two of her close friends, Zach and Dave, for a hike up Soapstone Mountain to watch the sunrise. They even brought a camp stove and made breakfast!


She did a few loads of laundry so she could finish up her packing.
The gathering spot was in the piano room.


 She hadn't slept in her bedroom for a while.  She was using her bed to collect the clothes she planned to pack.


While her clothes were being washed, she decided to fix her favorite spider earring that had lost the jewel.



Gold or blue?


Then I followed her to her friend's house so I could take pictures of her saying good-bye to Jess.




Jess carried on a long tradition between friends by giving Annie a picture she had drawn of a dinosaur in front of the Eastman School of Music!

I couldn't help but take a picture of Jess's cat Archie!



After a final drive through the corn fields and cow pastures of town...



Annie went to the high school track for a final run.


How appropriate that the back of her shirt reads:
"BE COURAGEOUS"


Then Annie stayed home and ate dinner with us.  We went to the grocery store for snacks to bring to college,
finished packing,

and she redid her manicure at 2:00 AM before going to sleep.

On Sunday morning we went to church
for her final time as the official church pianist.


 After the service, there were many hugs and well-wishes ...



 Then we went home to pack up the car


AND WE LEFT TOWN.

THAT was how she spent her last 24 hours at home!