For the first 50 years of my life, my perfectionist self mistakenly believed it was all about knowing more, getting it right, planning, attempting to prevent bad things from happening, and keeping all of my chicks in a row. It took me this long to discover that the JOURNEY is all that matters. This quote from Gilda Radner sums it all up:

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
"


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

"D" ficient

I don't like to complain about aches and pains.
If I don't pay attention to them,
maybe they'll go away!

I've been rather fortunate in my life up until this point
because I've never really had any that really bothered me.

Since I have begun running, however,
I've been complaining.

Every time I increase my distance by even a little,
I wake up the next day wondering if I can make it
down the stairs in the morning.  Then it takes
2 or 3 days before I can run again without pain.

I realize this isn't normal.
So I called my doctor and asked if I could have
my thyroid levels checked and my Vitamin D.



Sure enough, my TSH was creeping up again,
so the doctor doubled my thyroid medicine.

But surprisingly, my Vitamin D levels are now in
the "Deficient" range.
I'm surprised because last year my Vitamin D levels
were "Insufficient" so I've been taking 2500 IU/day for
the past year.
But now it is even worse!



During my discussion with the doctor, I mentioned that I have started running and told him about the long recovery times for my leg muscles and the pain/weakness I've been experiencing.

He wasn't surprised.
Muscle pain/weakness is a prime symptom of
Vitamin D deficiency!




Starting tomorrow, I will be taking prescription
Vitamin D in a dose of 50,000 IU once a week for the
next 8 weeks.  Then he will check it again.

I hope and pray it helps.
I'll let you know!


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My jogging log (new entries in red)

13:18 min           1.04 mile            12:47 min/mile
12:29 min           1.05 miles           11:53 min/mile
14:53 min           1.24 miles           12:00 min/mile
12:34 min           1.06 miles           11:51 min/mile
15:08 min           1.37 miles           11:02 min/mile
16:46 min           1.45 miles           11:34 min/mile
16:07 min           1.44 miles           11:12 min/mile
16:20 min           1.40 miles           11:40 min/mile
15:54 min           1.40 miles           11:21 min/mile
15:03 min           1.40 miles           10:40 min/mile
15:39 min           1.40 miles           11:11 min/mile
15:25 min           1.40 miles           10:51 min/mile
15:28 min           1.40 miles           11:03 min/mile 
15:31 min           1.37 miles           11:20 min/mile
15:20 min           1.40 miles           10:57 min/mile
15:55 min           1.50 miles           10:37 min/mile
16:07 min           1.50 miles           10:45 min/mile
16:03 min           1.50 miles           10:42 min/mile
16:00 min           1.50 miles           10:40 min/mile
18:00 min           1.67 miles           10:47 min/mile
19:31 min           1.71 miles           11:25 min/mile
19:03 min           1.71 miles           11:14 min/mile
18:15 min           1.73 miles           10:33 min/mile
17:58 min           1.71 miles           10:30 min/mile
17:27 min           1.70 miles           10:16 min/mile

Sunday, February 19, 2012

The LAST Game

It was a very intense rivalry.

A series of matches spanning almost 2 decades.

It's over now.

BUT I'LL NEVER FORGET THAT LAST GAME...

You see, ever since our kids were little,
nearly every time we visited my mom and dad
we would play rummy after the kids went to bed.



There were two teams.
Me and my mom against Vance and my dad.
Girls vs. Guys.


We would pop some popcorn...


and bring the bowl of M&Ms to the table...


and start a series of games that involved much
name calling, taunting, and fun!

When things weren't going their way,
my dad would do his "special shuffle"
to try to turn their luck around.

When my mom had a really good hand,
she would look at me across the table
and cross her eyes!

When we visited my parents for Christmas in 2006,
we played what turned out to be our FINAL match.

My mom had COPD and needed oxygen 24/7.
Her memory had deteriorated.

As we began the game, we needed to remind her
how to play.  She was unsure of the rules.

My hopes of winning that night were pretty dim.

But surprisingly,  we were getting good cards
and we were ahead of the guys.

Playing to 1000 points,
my mom and I needed just a few more points
to win the game and the match!

I reminded her to not to hold onto her high cards.
You see, in Rummy, you have to subtract the points from
whatever cards you have left in your hand at the end of the game.

The game ended.
We scored enough to win the match!
Then my mom showed us the cards in her hand.
She had gotten rid of her high cards as planned
but still had a JOKER in her hand!

A joker is wild and could easily be played.
But if it was in your hand at the end of the game,
you had to subtract 50 POINTS!

Dad and Vance ended up winning the match.
They were cocky and irritating - the way they
always were when they beat us!
Just as it should be.

I soooo wish it had ended differently!
For me, yes, because I hate to lose.
But mostly for Mom.
When I went to bed that night, 
I knew in my heart we had played
THE LAST GAME.

I was right.









 








Thursday, February 16, 2012

HEART attack

 Heart Attack:  A heart attack occurs when blood flow to a part of your heart is blocked for a long enough time that part of the heart muscle is damaged or dies.


Valentine's Day is a day when you open up your heart to the people you love.

It's a day to make people smile.
To lift people up.
It makes you happy to make others happy.

That's the way it usually is.


For some people, however, their hearts are lifted
            by attempting to bring others down.
They thrive on negativity and criticism
           directed toward others.



Have you ever noticed how these people
           tend to surround themselves by other people
           who also enjoy spending their time picking apart
           the lives and good intentions of others?


Everybody gets daily opportunities, whether big or small, to give those around them a glimpse of their heart. I certainly hope when I show you my heart, it’s something worth seeing.

I made a decision many years ago that my life would benefit by surrounding myself with positive, strong, honorable, supportive, and loving family and friends.



No matter how hard you try,  negative hearts bring you down.

It's easier to be positive.
It's easier to build others up.
It's easier to show empathy.
It's easier to see the glass half full.


I don't claim to be perfect.  I make mistakes.
Everyone does.

For the most part, however, I try to take the easy way out!
Don't you wish everyone would?
Every Day.


“There is no exercise better for the heart than reaching down and lifting people up.”
John Holmes

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Ciao Adamo!

 Last night, we helped Adam finish packing for what I hope will be an amazing adventure!
He is taking classes this semester at the Sapienza University of Rome.
It is the largest university in Europe with over 150,000 students.

Adam has been preparing for this since Freshman year.  It was necessary to become pretty fluent in the language since all of his courses will be taught in Italian. 

 He will be renting an apartment in Rome with some other students who are from Italy.  He has never met them.  He knows nothing about them. They probably don't even speak English. 

We left home today at noon and drove him to JFK Airport.

I don't know exactly how Adam was feeling, but I was feeling nervous and excited for him - and a little jealous!  I probably would never have dared to do this at his age! But then again, I had never even been on an airplane at his age. 
 Crossing the bridge into Long Island, we could see the NYC skyline.
 
 In just about 2 hours, we were there.


 Vance dropped us off and went to park the car.

 I helped Adam bring his bags to check-in.  We had used "space bags" to pack all of his things.  You vacuum out all of the air and you can fit a tremendous amount of clothes in the bags.  So much  that the bag weighed over 10 lbs more than the allowed weight, so there was a $75 fee.  Very worth it for all that he packed!

 I took this picture because of the American flag - something Adam will not be seeing again until August when he comes back home.
 Since we were so early for his 5:35 flight, we got him something to eat and sat with him for a while.


 This lady sat down at the table next to us with her dog...
 I thought perhaps she was coming from the Westminster Dog Show.
 But upon closer inspection, I decided probably NOT.

 We walked him to the security gate where we said our good-byes.
One last picture of my baby before he leaves -
and before an airport security guard came running toward me yelling to put down the camera!  Haha!

We hope and pray that everything goes smoothly for him.  He doesn't have a cell phone yet (he plans to get one once he gets settled), so we will have to wait until he finds a way to email us to let us know he has arrived safely. 

He also plans to write a blog.

I can't wait to read it.
I miss him already!

Monday, February 13, 2012

The Ones I Didn't Choose (or who didn't choose me)


As I was searching for quotes on dating that I could identify with, the last person I expected to agree with was Britney Spears!  

Dating...  Romance...

I've been there.  Done that. 
And I'm glad it's over.
But I firmly believe it's important to date a lot of guys so you can learn what you really want in a husband.   And what you don't want.  

But then again,  I am the type of person 
who doesn't make quick decisions.  
I like to weigh all of the options.
Study the pros and cons.

If I knew I could never marry someone, 
I never went on a 2nd date.

If someone told me they loved me early on,
I felt uncomfortable and knew they weren't sincere.
I set them straight.

I have only said "I LOVE YOU" to one person.

But as Valentine's Day approaches, 
I thought it would be fun to look back
on the ones I DIDN'T CHOOSE.


My first date was with Donald when I was a sophomore in high school.  We had gone to grammar school together and he had blue eyes.  And he was smart.  We went roller skating and he held my hand.  I liked the idea that my first date was over.  I had fun, but wasn't really attracted to him.  I let him down easy. (No picture of Donald!)



 For the rest of high school, I liked Jim.  He was smart.  He had a nice smile.  He was very witty.  And he was a really nice guy.   We hung out with a group of friends, we slow-danced at high school dances, we went to a few formal dances together.  We went on one real date after high school.  It was then that I realized I loved him more as a friend.  I still remember when I told him this.  We were in college talking in front of the student union (Billings building back then).  I felt bad hurting him because I liked him so much.  I didn't want to lose his friendship.  We still keep in touch every Christmas with personal notes on our family Christmas cards.  I still consider him my friend.



 I dated Rick during college.  I worked at a pizza restaurant called "The Tower".   He lived in Harris/Millis dorm at UVM.  Rick was a runner.  He had a nice smile.  He was kind of funny and goofy and fun to be with.  It didn't last long.  He broke up with me at "What Ale's You".  I was very distraught  for a while.  I still have a teddy bear he gave me.





 Kip also worked at "The Tower" with me.  He was a serious person who looked ahead to his future.  He was a very nice guy.  Very down to earth and gentle.  One night my parents were really upset because I didn't come home until the wee hours of the morning (remember there were no cell phones back then!).  Kip and I were talking on a swingset somewhere and lost track of the time. He was a Mormon and we were having a deep conversation about faith.  Kip went to France on a mission trip and things just never went any further.  We reconnected on Facebook a few years ago.




 Jim  and Tim.  Brothers. That was complicated.  They both worked at "The Tower".  They were both really nice guys.  They were really smart too.  And witty.  Jim liked me and I liked Tim.  It didn't work out for any of us.  Jim sent me this picture when he was in college at BU.  It was labeled "studying by osmosis".  




 Dan.  I met Dan in college.  We had lots of math and computer classes together.  We became friends and spent a LOT of time together.  We also worked 2nd shift at IBM one summer and we commuted to and from work together.  We would go out after work quite often.  I LOVED being with Dan.  He made me laugh.  He was a gentle giant. He always took care of me and made me feel loved.
There was some romance involved, and I really WANTED to fall in love with Dan, but for the most part we were really good friends.  

This picture was taken after college.  I had moved to New Britain, CT.  I was a Big Sister to the little girl in the picture and I took her to Boston one day.  Dan met us there and spent the day with us.

At this time, though, I had begun work at Travelers and he had moved to MA to begin his career.
We went to each others weddings.  Even though I was already with Vance,  I have to admit there was a tug on my heart at his wedding.  I knew our relationship would never be the same again.   We had been out of touch for a number of years (except Christmas cards).  We have since become Facebook friends.  It's strange, but I still feel that if I ever needed help, he would be there for me. 




 Charlie.  Charlie and Vance were in my training class at Travelers.  After I turned down Vance for a date,  I dated Charlie for a while.  He fixed my car for me.  It didn't last long because I realized I had made a mistake when I didn't go on that date with Vance! 

I dated Vance for one year before we got engaged.  
His picture is not here
because 
I chose him
and 
he chose me.



“The best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out of your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.”  ~Juno

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Rise and Shine

This past week has been a lucky one for me.

I won $40 in a Superbowl Pool on Sunday!

And I won an $855.00 rug in a New Year's Resolution contest on Facebook!

The contest was by Company C, a rug/furniture/fabric/pillow designer and manufacturer.
If you click on the link, you can read my winning resolution and see the beautiful rugs they design.

I discovered Company C when I was looking for a colorful area rug for my new kitchen.

I bought "Wendy's Garden", a very happy and brightly colored hooked rug for under my kitchen table.

As the contest winner, I could choose ANY 4'6 x 6'6 rug of my choice.

I chose the "Rise and Shine" design.

It is soooo beautiful and cheery!
My rug was delivered yesterday...


The detail on the rug is amazing.

There are so many different textures and colors!




Maddie loves it too!

The colors look real nice with Halle's coat.




Here are a few more pictures without any pets...

Doesn't it make you happy just looking at it?

Thank you, Company C!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Renovations (again)

We built our house in 1988.
Since that time, we have made lots of changes.
There are only two rooms that are "originals".
The bathrooms.

FINALLY we are in the process of renovating
the master bath and the kids' bath.

Knowing that they will soon be torn apart from top to bottom,  I've given up trying to make them look nice.  I'm have visions in my head of how they will soon be transformed, and I have no ambition to even clean anymore!

 As always, my "shadow" follows me wherever I go!

 The master bath is small, and very cluttered.  The drawers in the vanity are too shallow to store much of anything, so it stays on top of the counter.

 We have a small corner hamper for dirty clothes - that's all we can fit.  The new bathroom will have a hatchway in the wall to a large laundry bin in the closet on the other side.


The fiberglass shower enclosure will be ripped out and replaced by a tiled shower with a frameless glass door.

Nutmeg Stairs and Cabinets will make a new floating vanity cabinet with nice deep drawers and a quartz top.  Bye-bye formica!

 The kids' bathroom is more of the same.  Clutter, dirt, formica - yuk!

 The fish pictures will not reappear in the new bathroom!


 Neither will the cords.  The hairdryer will plug into the inside of the cabinet drawer so it will always be out of sight.

 The fiberglass tub will be replaced by an acrylic soaking tub with tiled walls.

 Again, Nutmeg is making a nice floating cabinet with quartz top.

 I have even stopped replacing light bulbs!

 The bathroom will be better ventilated with a cleaner, quieter fan that will vent to the outside.

 About 15 years ago we had a leak that the plumber patched with something that turned brown over the years!

I have been spending a lot of time making selections for toilets, tubs, tile, sinks, medicine cabinets, faucets, and tile.   Almost done!

The sooner I'm done, the sooner we can start.

The kids' bath will be the first to be worked on.


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My jogging log (new entries in red)

13:18 min           1.04 mile            12:47 min/mile
12:29 min           1.05 miles           11:53 min/mile
14:53 min           1.24 miles           12:00 min/mile
12:34 min           1.06 miles           11:51 min/mile
15:08 min           1.37 miles           11:02 min/mile
16:46 min           1.45 miles           11:34 min/mile
16:07 min           1.44 miles           11:12 min/mile
16:20 min           1.40 miles           11:40 min/mile
15:54 min           1.40 miles           11:21 min/mile
15:03 min           1.40 miles           10:40 min/mile
15:39 min           1.40 miles           11:11 min/mile
15:25 min           1.40 miles           10:51 min/mile
15:28 min           1.40 miles           11:03 min/mile 
15:31 min           1.37 miles           11:20 min/mile
15:20 min           1.40 miles           10:57 min/mile
15:55 min           1.50 miles           10:37 min/mile
16:07 min           1.50 miles           10:45 min/mile
16:03 min           1.50 miles           10:42 min/mile
16:00 min           1.50 miles           10:40 min/mile
18:00 min           1.67 miles           10:47 min/mile
19:31 min           1.71 miles           11:25 min/mile

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